Last week I was admitted to the hospital for the worst 4 days of any hospital stay I've ever had, due to my blood pressure being thru the roof. So bad that they were prepared to deliver baby instantly. After getting my blood pressure under control with meds, I got the joyous task of sitting in a hospital bed for 3 more days without seeing a doctor for over 48 hrs til I got angry and demanded one. Suffice it to say, I was not impressed.

When your blood pressure is as high as mine is unmedicated, there are a few things that go on that cause the issues that would have been cause to deliver baby that quickly and at this point in time....
The first is that your organs (kidneys and liver) are working on double time - to the point that they don't function to their full potential. In my case, my kidneys were under so much pressure that the little filters in them that take care of the good stuff and make sure you don't get rid of the good stuff stopped functioning. The proteins I was getting rid of, are what is needed to keep the placenta healthy. The liver can cause epigastric pains which also a bad sign (which I didn't and haven't had yet thankfully).

I'm now on complete bedrest and not allowed to do anything... even laundry (there are some small miracles in this ya know *laugh*). I have a nurse that comes 4 times a week, a blood pressure monitor at home and monitor it on my own 6 times a day. I've also developed mild gestational diabetes and test my blood 4 times a day.

The lovely drugs that I am taking for the blood pressure have an interesting side effect that apparently only 3.2% of all the test cases developed which I'm not so sure I'm pleased about.
Libetelol 200mg bid ... working wonders on the blood pressure..... HOWEVER, the cold feet and hands when it is starting to lose its effect and the sweating of my hands mid day, I can do without.

They have decided that at this point in time, we're going to stick with 2 weeks at a time, our goal at this point is 34 weeks (which would put us right around the 20th of Feb). Once we're there, it will be a daily decision. Ideally, they'd like to get me to 35 weeks and I'd be ok with that with one slight exception... I don't want a Pisces baby! *laugh* Ok so beggars can't be choosers, but I was planning to cross my legs to get past the 21st of March :-)

With the bed rest, I've been sadly sent to the couch with limited online time as the pressure of baby etc on my artery running up my back causes blood pressure spikes so expect that my posts shall be fewer and fewer between, but I solemnly promise to keep my faithful visitors updated.

Oh and since he has given up any rights as far as decisions are concerned by his behaviour, I have made my choice as far as names are concerned and he has no say....

Presleigh Lenore

Take your records
Take your freedom
Take your memories
I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
Take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been, should have been...
While you're sleeping with your pride wishing I could hold you tight,
I am over you and on with my life.

I found the above song the blessing in my life as of late... allowed me to push it all away and concentrate on me and this baby.
Thank you Devin, for setting me free. To allow me to be out of a bad place before I got to somewhere I couldn't get out of.

Well, I know I'm a week late, however....

Happy New Year!

Aside from being physically exhausted (this was sooooo much easier at 22), things are good on this end. She's a lean mean kickin machine and I'm certain I am bruised from the inside out. :-)

The little counter thingamahoochie says 69 days... holy shit.

I've been working my tail off trying to build up hours so that when I do go on mat leave on March 1, that its all good and happy for EI.

And on a different note...
I actually have met someone that is ok with the fact that I am pregnant and is actually interested in spending time with me and has no qualms about all of this..... We have alot of things in common with respect to the ex's and behaviours. One day at a time, but its been kinda nice talking to someone that understands and isn't judging anything.