Its been a wee while since I've posted, so I figured I'd post a long babble of whats up...

In late August, P & I went to Fort Mac to see D. He and I managed to resolve some issues and I got the truth, finally. At the time TTW had moved out for over 2 months.. however, she is back now and *gasp* just a few short weeks later, they are getting married in a couple of weeks. *laugh*

I made every effort to ensure that we were available for him, and he failed to follow thru on anything he promised to do... surprise surprise. Last conversation he threatened me with court again and I expect to be served at any moment. In speaking with my lawyer, this is alot of hot air, but gotta go thru it.

I was in a car accident in June, where I was rear ended whilst at a dead stop. I have not been to work since the beginning of August and I was actually doing very well in physio and started to not be in so much pain... until this past Friday. I haven't slept more than a few hours here n there since Thurs night... so... gonna hafta change the game plan again.

I'm a little befuddled in people too at the moment and really wish that people would find a way to either stop making promises they dont intend to keep or follow thru with what they promise... this is not directed at anyone that reads this, its just people in general...

Anyways, 5am and Im still awake... fark.

I've previously posted about how irritated I became with Nickelback during their 24hrs of Nickelback promo tour...

Well, recently I've become more irritated with the quantity that they are being played on the radio..to the point where even the songs I liked are now a waste of space... Llamas are being killed around the world every time a Nickelback song is played..seriously.

Then I found this...

Nickelback

Make sure you have your speakers on and be prepared for your ears to bleed.

Ah well, at least I don't have to deal with his flunkies that apparently wander in and out of his house with no regard for the alarm system anymore.

On a different topic..

I am very sorry that I have been very down and negative the past few days. My plate is very full and I cracked. I'm in so much physical pain because of my accident and not being able to get to physio for a week (doesn't sound like long, but believe me, I'm feeling every day that I haven't been) isn't helping, the stress because the owner of the car that hit me (the driver is not the owner or insured) is holding up the process to get liability handled and I have to come up with my deductible by Tuesday to get my car back. Mind you, I could keep the rental for 2 weeks and still be under the max for my rental car limit. Added to all of this, a friend's brother passed away last week, and P and I have been alone for 10 days so its been difficult to do anything around the house because of my pain and not having help...

And last but not least to add to my fustrations, D called to have a fight and because I was at my breaking point already, he caught me vulnerable and I broke.

Anyways, I'm off to bed, need to be up for work.

Sorry that I have not updated in awhile. I've just really been a cross between lazy and busy...and tired.

Everything has been taken out of me physically (accident), emotionally (accident crap, life, people in general) and financially (accident) and I need a pick-me-up. I dont know if I can wait til we start reg service to the carribean before I break.

The asshole that hit me, his buddy's insurance isn't responding to the demand letter from my co. and its causing me grief. My car went into the body shop today for its repairs and I have the rental car from hell. They gave me a freakin land yacht that is a gas pig. So its going back tomorrow.

Work, tired blah..going to bed

We're outta here til July 12th for holidays. See ya in a couple of weeks.

Yesterday (Saturday), I was on my way to The Store That Shall Not Be Named in an effort to get another car seat for Miss P because all my efforts to find a used one at a reasonable price have failed and I needed it far sooner than yesterday. I was coming up C rowchild Tr and exited off at N orth land Dr to go into N orthland mall and I was at a full stop at the yield going to the right, when *BLAM* my head went flying forward and smashed into the steering wheel and *BLAM* my head slammed back into the headrest, which I felt give. Somehow I had the presence of mind to stop the moving car which was thrown forward into traffic and put the car into park and throw on my hazard lights... how or when I don't know, as I don't remember doing it.

My driver's window was open and the driver of the other car came to see if I was alright. I said no. He asked if I had been in an accident before and I said years and years ago. He then asked me where I had been going. I'm still not sure if he was making small talk or if he was trying to get me to say something to get him off the hook. I just said I was going to The Store That Shall Not Be Named. He then disappeared for a second and my gut reaction was to call my mom. In hysterics I called her and asked her to come to the scene, which wasn't far from her house. She asked if I had called the police, and I said no, but I hit my head badly. She urged me to call 911 and then I hung up and called them. The guy wanted into my passenger door to talk to me. My purse and everything were on the seat beside me so then this wave of panic that he was going to rob me went thru my head. Gathering my stuff and putting it on the floor on my side, I let him in. He wanted me to move the cars into the parking lot. So I managed to do that, and I vaguely remember doing it.
I called 911 as we were driving into the lot and told them where I was and they urged me not to get out of the car, as much as I wanted to, I couldn't breath, my head was throbbing.
I got 2 ambulances, 3 fire trucks and 2 police cruisers.

They checked me over at the scene and released me, urging me to get looked at by a doctor for the whiplash I will surely have.

On a funny note, I have a bumper sticker/magnet that says "If you're gonna ride my ass, at least pull my hair." and the firemen were laughing at it, and when the paramedics were helping me out of the car, I saw two of them pointing and laughing at it..so I said "I guess he was trying to pull my hair." Which made them laugh.

He was charged with at least two offenses, don't know what, but I saw them writing tickets.
He totalled his buddy's car so I guess he won't be driving his buddy's car anytime soon.
I went to the doctors after I had cleared my head by going to The Store That Shall Not Be Named with my mom and Greg and got the stupid car seat and he prescribed me some muscle relaxants, pain killers, a collar, physiotherapy and massage therapy.
I can't lift Miss P, I can't do up my own bra and I can't shoulder check at all so my driving has been severely hampered.

If this fucks up my holidays in Ontario, I'm going to hunt someone down and hurt them... badly.
I go back to the doctor Monday. I have insurance adjusters coming tomorrow from my insurance co, I have to get an x ray done, I have the owner's insurance adjusters either Tues or Wed, and I need to get some work done on a shop that is due before I leave. In between all that, I have to work my reg job and try and heal and get some physio and a massage or two before Friday.


I must say, I will from now only ever buy Saturn. My car has such minimal cosmetic damage that unless I pointed it out to you, you'd never know it happened. The wheels need an alignment, and various other things need to be checked, but in all honesty, my body took the brunt of the impact, not the car. The car he was driving, a 91 N issan N s x is a write off... the car is worth less than a grand and there is at least 5 grand in damage..at least that.

I hate you right now, dude. I know who you are and where to find you and if I had the strength right now, I'd bitch slap you.

I don't now what is up with Blogger tonight, but its slower than molasses in winter... anyways...

Random thought 1 - today was my first payday back after I worked last week in training and for some weird reason unbeknownst to me, I received a significant amount of money in my payroll. Dumb me was looking for my paystub to see why - I forgot that I signed up for electronic paystubs from our payroll provider and I haven't accessed it in 18 months, so be f***** if I remember my password.

Random thought 2 - yesterday I spent some time out with an old friend. We see each other randomly and and more often than not, one of us sleeps over at the other's place. We generally stay in, rent movies and just hang out - but last night, we were out in the world, hanging out and having a good time...and as much as I love spending time watching movies n stuff, it was nice to hang out in the real world...

Random thought 3 - I miss you - I can't help that, I can't change it and not sure that I want to. I want my friend back. I want you in my life, to talk to - not to be an obligation which is how I'm feeling right about now. Even if its random 1 word emails, that would mean something more to me than the random 'ello at oh-dark-thirty when I am asleeeeeeep.

Random thought 4 - I CANNOT wait for vacation. Mom was good enough to get me a secondary card on hers so that I can rent a car... did you know that they won't accept prepaid credit cards as hold for a car rental? I understand why NOW, however what a pain the posterior. After I spent the time and effort to go get one, now its pointless.
We're going to St Charles, Ontario which is in the middle of freakin nowhere on an island to relax, vegetate and have a fantastic time. Its the same place I went 2 summers ago when I was pregnant with Miss P.

Random thought 5 - I forgot to finish the alphabet game... so for the rest of the alphabet, I will come up with a post in a few days to finish it off both here and on Miss P's.

On that note, 7am will come soon, I'm off to dreamland. Meet ya there.

Sorry for the lack of updates.. its been rather crazy.

The blog will probably be slow on updates even more now as I go back to work after 18 months starting on Monday.

Its been very wonderful to have been home...but.. all good things must come to an end.