I wonder..

...what it is that I do or don't do that gives off the vibe that it is ok to walk all over me? Am I not firm enough when I say No, I'm sorry I can't/won't/shouldn't? Or is it that I don't say no enough? Am I just too nice?

I've really tried in recent months to not be a doormat.

I thought that I was clear. I thought that I said things clearly, concisely, and didn't leave room for error in anything.

Why do I deserve to be treated with anything less than respect and honesty and integrity?

Why do I always have to be last?